Mag'har Exalted

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Well, seeing as no one reads this.. (>_>
Maybe some archaeologist in the future will find and read this and be interested in the ongoings of my daily life as perhaps one day I will turn out to be a historical figure..

Well, I'm still at the Cheesecake. Approaching 1 year now. When I tell the newcomers at work that I've almost been there for a year, they just nod slowly and say things like "Well, it's a living." or "Really? Sad.." But this is always the way. You don't pick the job, the job picks you. You might think at some point, you have a good handful of savings, you can go pick what you want to do, but what you want to do is something only the resourceful can get into, with a stack of certificates thicker than yours and more network of people bigger than yours.

I'm still not sure what I want to do. Well, I do know, it's just it isn't really a "job" per se.
I just want to learn things until my brain explodes. Do people get paid to learn? Probably not. Learning is what you do on the side, while jobs are repetitive patterns of mundane tasks. It might be new and fun in the first few weeks, but in the end, it's all the same.

I don't know why North America associate school and learning with a negative image. Like people here seriously hate learning. Probably because their ideal of fun is injecting themselves with narcotics and mass amounts of alcohol, then proceed to unlearn everything they know in life. What a bunch of losers. Not naming names, but these kids are the downfall of evolution really. To solve this problem, I will require serial proxy murders. XD

Have the government create an IQ test, anyone below the score of 150 gets sent to a special camp where they will be sorted into giant cargo containers and shot into space.

But then the plot of Starcraft will happen, the container will crashland somewhere, but with dumb people instead of criminals. They'll sort out the strongest of them and kill/eat the rest, and start a small society of these big dumb people, who will eventually dominate a sector of space and have a galactic war with the smarter people back on Earth, or whereever we were living then. But being the more strategic of the bunch, we will eventually decimate their forces through thinking and planning. Yeah, that's the way it'll go..

New facebook url!

Now it's http://www.facebook.com/misque!

Clear + 蛇足's cover of Magnet has made me gay

Magnet

か細い火が心の端に灯る
いつの間にか燃え広がる熱情
私の蝶不規則に飛び回り
あなたの手に鱗粉を付けた

絡み合う指ほどいて唇から舌へと
許されない事ならば尚更燃え上がるの

抱き寄せて欲しい確かめて欲しい
間違いなど無いんだと思わせて
キスをして塗り替えて欲しい
魅惑の時に酔いしれ溺れていたいの

束縛してもっと必要として
愛しいなら執着を見せつけて
「おかしい」のがたまらなく好きになる
行けるトコまで行けばいいよ

迷い込んだ心なら簡単に融けてゆく
優しさなんて感じる暇など無い位に

繰り返したのはあの夢じゃなくて
紛れも無い現実の私達
触れてから戻れないと知るそれでいいの
誰よりも大切なあなた

夜明けが来ると不安で泣いてしまう私に
「大丈夫」と囁いたあなたも泣いていたの？

抱き寄せて欲しい確かめて欲しい
間違いなど無いんだと思わせて
キスをして塗り替えて欲しい魅惑の時に
酔いしれ溺れたい

引き寄せてマグネットのように
例えいつか離れても巡り会う
触れていて戻れなくていいそれでいいの
誰よりも大切なあなた

A slender flame burns at the edge of my heart
Without warning, it spreads into a burning passion
My butterfly, flitting around it chaotically
Scales dropping into your hand

I am wrapped around your finger from the lips to the tongue
Even if this is something that cannot be allowed the flames jump higher still

I want to embrace you, I want you to tell me
That you don't think this is a mistake
I want you to kiss me, I want you to remake me
I want to drown in this moment of captivation

Every moment, it's harder to restrain myself
If this is love, I want to wear it on my sleeve
The "strange feeling" turns into an unbearable longing
I would follow you to the end of forever

If my heart goes astray I will be easily relieved
I feel the tenderness

That dream has never come again
There is no chance in our reality
If we touch, I know we can never go back and that's just fine...
You are everything in the world to me

Anxiety arrives with the dawn to find me still crying
When you whispered "it's all right" did I hear tears in your voice, too?

I want to embrace you, I want you to tell me
That you don't think this is a mistake
I want you to kiss me, I want you to remake me
I want to drown in this moment of captivation

I am drawn to you like a magnet
Even if I left, we would find each other again
I've touched you, I can never go back and that's just fine.
You are everything in the world to me


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